I was born with one foot in this world and one foot in another, and have spent my entire life learning to come to terms with this and live peacefully.
For whatever reason, I was born extremely psychic and ‘plugged into’ the spiritual side. But, unlike most children, who gradually begin to lose this connection with time, this connection and my abilities grew in strength with every passing year, and growing up like this was scary and confusing.
Now that I’m 36, and have spent many moons getting to know myself, and understanding my inherent talents and abilities, shadow aspects and fears, I’m proud to say that I’m able to, (on most days), make peace with being different. And more times than not, I’m even able to wholly embrace the unique perspective life gives me because I have one foot in both worlds.
But it used to be painful to be different. It used to hurt when people found me intense, too deep and knowing. It used to hurt when people called me fierce, confronting or weird.
I’ve grown accustomed to people not wanting to look me in the eye, or finding my nature and energy penetrating, but back then I craved to be like ‘normal girls’.
I wanted to deal with the day-to-day-ness of what most children and teenagers dealt with. I wanted to worry about who were my friends, how I looked, what I was wearing, who fancied me and who I fancied. But these years were spent suppressing the things I saw about people, fending off ghosts that would appear at night, hours in bed, bent over in agony with stomach pains, and pretending I didn’t dream things about people that came to pass.
I didn’t know I was born an empath, a psychic, a ghost whisperer, a medium, a healer and a shadow hunter. I didn’t know what these things were, or how to cope with the sensitivities of these abilities. I only knew that what was happening to me was scary, and that when I tried to tell other people about it, they simply told me I was weird.
Nowadays I’ve created a life in which living between both worlds is much more comfortable than hard, and is, on most days, joyous. I’m now thriving having one foot in this world, and one foot in another, but it took a long time and many years of searching, longing and introspection to arrive here.
I’ve also learnt how to live with and maximise from my abilities, and I now rejoice in being born an ‘old soul on young shoulders.’ And nowadays, if you tell me I’m too intense or fierce, I simply don’t give a hoot. But I know there are many gifted and gorgeous empaths and psychics in the world that haven’t arrived here yet. And you may be one of them…
I offer my story, this blog series, to you as a gift of healing and hope. I’m an intensely private person, so opening up and speaking candidly about my earlier years won’t be without discomfort. But, back then, if someone had opened up to me and shared their story, I wouldn’t have thought I was crazy-assed and weird. I wouldn’t have been so deeply frightened and confused. It would have given me comfort and reassurance.
And it’s my sincerest wish that sharing my story does this for you.
with love,
Belinda
Thank you for sharing….
I love reading your posts about the ether. I have only this year embraced my gifts and allowed them to be. I am gaining speed in all of my endeavors, I have much control over my gifts.
I find it funny that people find it hard to look into your eyes, I didn’t know why this was happening and now I do.
Thank you again for all of your great articles.
So grateful you are willing to share your story. It is hard being an empath and being on this spiritual journey sometimes- it really helps to hear others’ experiences do not feel so weird and confused. And to be part of your wonderful school :). I’m looking forward to reading this series.
Hi Belinda,
Thank you for starting this blog series. It is VERY rare to read about a psychic-medium younger years, how it all got started. I know personally I find myself wondering/ being curious about that. (when I visit a medium’s website, or go to get a reading, buy a book, etc) and I am sure many many other people do as well. two more things I would like to add 1. I noticed you stated people would call you “fierce” I know in a particular “community” that is a compliment, I have even used it myself (wink,wink 🙂 please don’t be offended, by me pointing that out. and 2. You didn’t mention your parents or siblings, or am I getting ahead of myself, I am sure that is coming. oops,… there is one other thing, I give myself readings and (I use Doreen Virtue’s Archangel Oracle Cards) and I keep getting the Indigo and Crystal Children Card-Archangel Metatron It states: “you have a bond with children. In particular, you can help children who are sensitive.” I find it very interesting, because I was a very sensitive kid, and could pickup on things but didn’t understand it. I still do as an adult, so, this series I feel will find its way to the right people, children, teens, and adults. I send you positive energy and love.
Thank you for your words and thank you for your work.❤️
Hi Belinda,
I am very interested in your experiences. I will follow your blog and hope to find and maybe recognize if my own thoughts are real.
I always trust they are but are still wondering. You have a beautiful gift and I do believe sharing is what you are meant to do with any gift you are given.
Thank you in advance.
Rita
I think it’s brave and honorable to share your story, psychic, mystic, spiritual experiences are private aspects many of us don’t share. Thank you for taking us there. There are many, many, MANY of us born with skills, I believe everyone has them it’s just a matter of degree of strength. Some come with the Eiffel Tower and others a toothpick. While I don’t view myself as different I do view myself as more “plugged in”.
Wise words, Jessica. I agree whole heartedly. xo
Hi Belinda,
I’m happy you’re sharing our story!
Maybe as an idea: I would love to know how you handle your “two-world-nature” in regards to your daughter, how you make her grow up and how she feels about and talks about having a very special mummy.
When I grew up, my parents were meditating and into spirituality (that alone was considered weird at the time), so I was sort of indoctrinated to never ever speak about meditation and “what we did” to anyone, not even to my grandparents, for fear of being stigmatized as belonging to a cult and thus expelled from normal social life (a fully valid fear). It’s funny how I haven’t shaken that completely yet and still tend to keep a lot of “my world” a secret.
I’m so happy that times have changed quite a bit, and that children like your daughter get such an awesome start to their lives.
Thank you for all the light that you are,
Bianca
Sorry, typo: YOUR story, of course!
YES!! Belinda… This gives me such good feelings! Thank you for being the courageous woman you are and thank you for deciding to share. The world needs this – may the force of all the Light be with you! You will open road for so much light to come through out of the pain you have lived with and the pain so many of us can relate to. xx Love, Julijana
I read your story it is true people laugh and try to find logics when we share our paranormal experiences with them.few years back my uncle passed away and he use to talk to me but nobody belived me.once I had experience of out of body experience and with great difficulty like crossing clouds , water and what not my soul reached a plinth where I met my uncle.I had a talk with him and then I was pushed back by him.No one believed me .I also swiped out this experience thinking it lucid dream.But I know it was not only a dream it was an out of body experience. This I understood only after reading spirituality.
Please guide me how I can help mysoul to develop .