I’ve always felt the body I was born into isn’t my own.
I don’t mean I feel I was born into a body of the wrong gender, or that I dislike the appearance of my physical body and feel it’s the ‘wrong’ body.
I mean, I’ve always felt trapped and restricted in my physical body because it’s small and condensed compared to the vastness of my consciousness.
When I was a child I remember feeling scared that my attention was focused within my body. It was absurd and frighteningly limited to be looking at the world through my small child eyes.
I often thought, “How did I get in here?” and “Why am I in this body?” And I remember telling my mum that “I don’t feel like my body is my own, like it isn’t a part of me,” and she would just look at me perplexed, not knowing what to say.
I was also afraid of the pain I could feel in this child-body. The world was a big place and my little body often got bruised, pained, pushed and pulled. I didn’t understand why I was in this body, and why this body hurt at times.
Of course, like all children I loved to skip and dance and run, but when I asked mum if we could fly, and she told me we couldn’t, I thought my physical body was an odd thing indeed because I knew I could fly. I could fly in my spirit-form!
As I grew older and started working as a psychic and medical intuitive, I came to realise that, for whatever reason, I was born still very ‘plugged into’ the spirit world and the other side. I was used to living in spirit-form and having the experience of a vast and expansive consciousness, so finding myself in a small body was a shock!
Some people feel they were born into the wrong gender body, and other’s feel there are things about their bodies that just aren’t right. For me it’s ‘odd’ to have a body, and my consciousness focused in it.
Even though I’m come to accept this as a part of this ‘earthly journey,’ there are days when I still find it weird that I’m ‘housed’ in a body.
I’ve also found ways of alleviating the restrictions of my physicality. Meditation, chakra work and mindfulness practices have greatly helped me achieve the feelings of expansion and vastness, and that is one of the reasons why I mediate for at least one hour every morning.
But you know what? Even when I’m channeling white light or doing yoga or running. And my chakras are humming, I’m anchored in ‘the now’ and connected to my body, it still feels weird having one!
I still feel my physical body isn’t my own. But it isn’t really mine, is it?
It’s just my temporary form for this incarnation 🙂
with love,
Belinda
