Mercy

Mercy

I have a migraine condition. I also have epilepsy.

Often my migraines are so severe they turn into seizures; and after an epileptic seizure I’II often get a bad migraine. It’s a catch-22.

This started in August of 2018.

Although I have a lot less migraines and seizures nowadays, I just went through 5 days of having back-to-back hemiplegic migraines and seizures.

It felt like I was going to die.

That may sound dramatic. But if you’ve ever had a hemiplegic migraine, you’ll know what I’m talking about.

I get asked a lot about my health condition. (I have vestibular migraines, epilepsy, and binocular vision dysfunction disorder.)

What have I done to improve my condition? What therapies, medications, supplements, dietary and lifestyle changes, etc.?

Truthfully, though, the biggest improvement I’ve made to my life since August of 2018 was embracing the concept of mercy—that life was loving and kind and merciful to give me this condition.

Don’t think I adopted this attitude right away. No!

At first, I felt like I was getting the shit kicked out of me on the daily, and although I didn’t feel sorry for myself (in my work as a medical intuitive I’d seen enough bad things happen to good people), I didn’t like it at all that I was in so much physical and psychological pain.

But in time … slowly … I came to see that there was purpose to my pain. I had come to know my Spirit; a place of peace beneath and beyond my suffering. And I also came to know one of its gifts—mercy: the blessing of the act of surrender to suffering.

This was—and continues to be—a difficult but essential life lesson for me learn.

I’m naturally driven. I’m naturally “a get up and get at ‘em” type of gal. I feel purpose when I’m on the move.

But you can’t do that when there’s lightning striking your brain and your body is paralysed.

I mean that literally. I’m paralysed a lot of the time in my migraine and seizure attacks. I can’t move. I can’t speak. Paralysed.

In August of 2018, life was starting to teach me something of great importance: mercy.

Drop it all and surrender to Spirit.

Mercy.

Damn it’s hard, but I know it’s my path; my journey in this lifetime.

Mercy.

The blessing of the act of surrendering to suffering.

Mercy.

Life never gives you anything more than you can handle.