I was born with one foot in this world and one foot in another, and have spent my entire life learning to come to terms with this and live peacefully.
For whatever reason, I was born extremely psychic and ‘plugged into’ the spiritual side. But, unlike most children, who gradually begin to lose this connection with time, this connection and my abilities grew in strength with every passing year, and growing up like this was scary and confusing.
Now that I’m 36, and have spent many moons getting to know myself, and understanding my inherent talents and abilities, shadow aspects and fears, I’m proud to say that I’m able to, (on most days), make peace with being different. And more times than not, I’m even able to wholly embrace the unique perspective life gives me because I have one foot in both worlds.
But it used to be painful to be different. It used to hurt when people found me intense, too deep and knowing. It used to hurt when people called me fierce, confronting or weird.
I’ve grown accustomed to people not wanting to look me in the eye, or finding my nature and energy penetrating, but back then I craved to be like ‘normal girls’.
I wanted to deal with the day-to-day-ness of what most children and teenagers dealt with. I wanted to worry about who were my friends, how I looked, what I was wearing, who fancied me and who I fancied. But these years were spent suppressing the things I saw about people, fending off ghosts that would appear at night, hours in bed, bent over in agony with stomach pains, and pretending I didn’t dream things about people that came to pass.
I didn’t know I was born an empath, a psychic, a ghost whisperer, a medium, a healer and a shadow hunter. I didn’t know what these things were, or how to cope with the sensitivities of these abilities. I only knew that what was happening to me was scary, and that when I tried to tell other people about it, they simply told me I was weird.
Nowadays I’ve created a life in which living between both worlds is much more comfortable than hard, and is, on most days, joyous. I’m now thriving having one foot in this world, and one foot in another, but it took a long time and many years of searching, longing and introspection to arrive here.
I’ve also learnt how to live with and maximise from my abilities, and I now rejoice in being born an ‘old soul on young shoulders.’ And nowadays, if you tell me I’m too intense or fierce, I simply don’t give a hoot. But I know there are many gifted and gorgeous empaths and psychics in the world that haven’t arrived here yet. And you may be one of them…
I offer my story, this blog series, to you as a gift of healing and hope. I’m an intensely private person, so opening up and speaking candidly about my earlier years won’t be without discomfort. But, back then, if someone had opened up to me and shared their story, I wouldn’t have thought I was crazy-assed and weird. I wouldn’t have been so deeply frightened and confused. It would have given me comfort and reassurance.
And it’s my sincerest wish that sharing my story does this for you.
with love,
Belinda
I adore and deeply respect that you are sharing this special series. Can’t wait to learn more about you and your journey! xx
Thank you so much for speaking out with your wise words.
I have had so much help and reassurance from your blogs and white light healing as I have been going through huge spiritual changes in the past two years while studying to be a Kinesiologist. I have often felt very isolated, different and unable to talk about or even express the things I am experiencing.
I recently went through a healing crisis where everything seemed to come to a head. And with possibly Divine timing, I came across your audio seminars. You talked about people who are born semi-awakened can sometimes have a hard life sorting through Karmic patterns at an accelerated pace. Well, what an ‘aha’! moment that was for me!. In that very moment my life seemed to make sense and there was a purpose for everything i was experiencing. I felt a deep peace and reassurance come over me that is still with me today.
Thank you so much Belinda for being such a big part of my spiritual journey.
That’s wonderful that you found the audio seminars I did with Kari Samuels so helpful. Blessings to you Abby. xo
Thank you so much for sharing Belinda, I adore all of your posts and am particularly interested in this series and understanding what it was like for you growing up. I had an interesting experience where my third eye was cracked open and I had many psychic visions and knowings. I’m still processing and integrating that as it was quite frightening and unexpected at the time as my intellectual mind couldn’t make sense of it. Of course everyone thought I was mad! I’m opening up to exploring this more 18 months on. Your posts I’m sure will be a huge help. Much love xx
Dear Belinda,
I deeply appreceate your open sharing!
My first encounter and session with you was more then 10 years ago and still today your words,so true, are resonating in my mind and heart.
In my work I offen lost clients because I saw and pointed out areas they havn’t been ready to see. Probably because
…sorry, pushend the button too early.
It is not important, what the clients say. It makes a difference how I Understand and deal with my ability to see.
I am very much looking forward to listening to your story.
Love, Uli
Your gift of white light healing has been a blessing. I can’t begin to imagine the isolation and fear growing up with the gifts you have, I am sure at the time they must have seemed like a curse. To have grown up during a time when enlightenment was still something that wasn’t talked about really and not accepted by main stream society by any means, must have been terrifying. You have made it through those times to come out the other side with a stronger resolve of who you are and where you fit in. Thank you for sharing. It can’t be an easy thing to do, possibly some healing for you will come of it. I have always felt I really didn’t fit anywhere- but that was not because I was dealing with spirits- without guidance. I am sure through all the pain, you have become a much stronger enlightened person because of it. I look forward to your news letters and teachings, Blessing – love and light
Thank you, Theresa. Your kind and uplifting words are very touching. White Light blessings to you. xo
Thank you for sharing your story Belinda. You are brave and beautiful. I feel blessed to have you in my life.
Meg
Thank you, Meg. xo
I commend you for your openness in service to others and cannot wait to read more about your beautiful, unique journey. I always say the truth is contagious and so is pretending but we have enough of the latter in the world already. <3
I loved reading this so much Belinda. You have changed my life beyond measure and I will be forever grateful xx
xo
Thank you Belinda!! I always love your posts. Thanks so much for sharing!! xx